Give me a moment just to say... I Hate Allergies

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So I have allergies.....to artificial dyes and preservatives in food....
what does this mean? Basically, I am allergic to junk food. Anything with high colors in it, or most varieties of chips and the like, including soda flavors (i can only drink sierra mist, sprite and ginger ale - no diet though), hardly any candy, mainly really expensive chocolate 
The reason that these dyes and preservatives are in food is to make food look more attractive and colorful, to preserve food cheaper, Ghirardelli chocolates used to be okay to eat, but as they became really popular, they knew people were hooked and so they started using artificial preservatives - It's really sad :(
       I'm allergic
I have to eat organic for more than just the usual health reasons and mental well being
          the sort of reaction i have is that it is an emotional reaction or ADD ration or moody or what ever you want to call it, i can't really control myself, its awful (i also break out in acne but i think that's everyone) I can go from an extremely good mood to the depths of hell in a matter of moments and getting me out of it is nearly impossible
   So sometimes I don't mind it because, hey! I am pretty healthy, I'm on feingold diet, i don't get sick often and i am well nourished (oh yeah, when i have low blood sugar i get really unhappy too, actually i just get plain angry and impatient and irritated 
   The stuff is bad for you anyways right, so being allergic is not a bad thing right, its not like i am going to die from it right?
well today, i woke up and it was the weekend (woohoo) and decided to make coconut macaroons around noon or so....well the coconut is sweetened, no big deal.
I have been pretty depressed all day for no real reason, not being able to get my mood up, even watching 2 episodes of star trek (season one original series)
I would have a macaroon once in a while and they were really good!
Tonight, after a very unhappy day of just self torture, i decided to check the back of the coconut flakes bag, and there were 2 preservatives in it, to preserve freshness and whiteness
    in other words, because i have been eating the coconut macaroons here and there all day, I was having an allergic reaction all day and it is why i have a totally unsuccessful day. I got to hang out and help my mother which is usually really enjoyable, but i don't think i could smile once and i had a nagging headache all day
so sure, i eat usually eat really healthy, 
but the pain of going through the day and having to watch every single thing i eat is not worth it. I cannot control myself and its a horrible feeling, crying, no matter where I am is also a very common side effect

writing about it helps though, it gets out some of the negativity and helps organize my thoughts
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Blakrana
That is admittedly a really raw deal. Whilst I can't attest to much experience with allergies, having only one (strawberries) that I don't mind cause I hate the stuff anyway...it is the case that being required to check every little thing you eat is tiresome and irritating.

For myself, since I developed Ulcerative Colitis, I've not been able to have any form of yoghurt or milk, so I can't have cereals any more. So, I can appreciate what it's like at least to have options curtailed.

Either way, hope you feel better and can find coconut macaroons which don't trigger your allergies.

*hugs*